Sorry for not posting this one earlier. But I’ve realized in the last few days (after talking to my various family members about this trip and how I’m doing, that I’ve explained a lot about where I am and what I’m up to, but nothing really about how it FEELS to be traveling half way across the world on my own. So I’m going to try my best to explain it.
Honestly, I'm having a sensational time. It’s true that I miss home pretty much all the time, but its rarely an aching need that I can’t satisfy. More so, now I’ve come to appreciate my family, friends and the life I have back in Minnesota in a different way. Sometimes (not often anymore) I feel anxious or even like I‘m drowning a little bit. It feels like I need to be doing something more productive with my time, although I can never figure out what that is. Sometimes I get lonely (like right after Christmas). But mostly that coincides with not having anything necessary to do, and not having many (or any) deeper connections with people here due to moving arouns a lot. Here at Solscape there are always people around and everyone feel like one big traveling family, its nice. I would say the biggest drawback to traveling on my own is: everything that I do, and everywhere that I go I wish I had someone to share the experience with. This country is one of the more amazing things I’ve experienced in my life and wish everyone I love you see it too.
92% of the time I feel like myself and am having a really awesome trip. And that percentage keeps growing everyday. I’m going through a lot of changes here, and learning a lot about myself. And sometimes that just takes a couple of days to adjust to. I am truly haveing the experience of a life time, and don’t feel like I’m missing out on anything at home (with the blizzard conditions and below zero temps). I feel as though this is exactly what I am supposed to be doing with my life at this very moment. It seems to just fit. And I’m good at it.
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